A Girl!!

The newest Day will be a little girl!! I am so excited that she and Aubrey will be sisters - a relationship that I find incredibly enriching personally and for most sisters I know. I do feel a little sad that, with 3, someone was going to be "odd man out"... but I cannot really see trying for a 4th. First, I would be terrified to go for another baby at my age because if there were chromosomal issues I would feel responsible. Second, there would be no guarantee that Eli would gain a brother - he may end up feeling even more left out! Still, I have prayed that God will change our minds if that is what He desires and that any decision to move forward with a fourth child would be made for all the right reasons - and not to gain a brother or sister, not to selfishly enjoy another baby, but because God called the baby to this world. If not, if we are complete as a family, then I hope God will lay this upon our hearts as well. In the meantime, I am celebrating this new little life!!! Every day I wake and tell her "hello!" We have been focusing on names so that this time our little one won't have to wait until the day we take her home to have a name. The naming process, for me, is so serious and important that I really dwell on all the potential pros and cons of each name. We make lists, "live" with the name for a few days, and then revise. The final decision, though, will come when we see her little face ... can't wait!!